The Ocean teaches us Love♒︎

by Sarah K. Grundy

The ocean teaches us about love.

Breath and life pour into us without hesitation the instant we reach where the sea meets the shoreline.
The waves kiss our toes sending a chill up our spine, while extracting the pain from our wounds.
The sea hears us with a drenched, longing soul and wants to know all of our secrets.
Just when we begin to embrace the rush that comes from the ancient, salty medicine penetrating our DNA, ride the rhythm of the tides, the waves splash through us, cleansing us of unwanted ties.
If we’re lucky enough to make it back to shore, the faint whispers heard in a language all their own won’t soon be forgotten and before you know it, you’ll be back at sea again.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT ©April 2019 MAZEYLOTUS

Free and fleeing⎈

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by Sarah K. Grundy

I couldn’t think of a more joyous time in my life.

When was the last time only the raw sounds of the wild woke you at 5 AM? When was the last time you had no WIFI for days, maybe weeks, but were more connected than ever? When was the last time you surfed, or swam in the sea every morning and stared at the stars each night? Where was the last place that fell over you with such peace, it melted you instantly and all you could hear was the sound of your own heart beat? When was the last time everything felt just as it should?

Fed on neat little morality slogans and education that spends time as if you didn’t have so little, life can become a place where you convince yourself that you’re happy. Day after day after day, talking yourself into staying with what seems like comfort, or pain that’s become comfortable. Relationships, homes, jobs, good food and friends, that’s enough right?

I wanted it to be enough.

Until one day you get a taste of real joy and suddenly know you’ve been lying to yourself all the while. A fleeting moment, perhaps on a wave you share with a dolphin surfing for the pure fun of it, or the thrill of your first big climb and suddenly you know there’s more.

You would think it’d be lonely in the jungles, lost at sea without any real home, but in fact it’s the noise that rings loudly with an emptiness. It’s so lonely.

So much noise.

So much stuff.

And yet nothing.

Writing this here and now as a vow to return to that place of pure joy. Not just in fleeting moments only to return to a home that is not a life come Monday morning, but to be free and fleeing once again.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT ©August 2019 MAZEYLOTUS

Phantoms in the Opera⎈

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by Sarah K. Grundy

I see you peeking at me through my window,  wondering if the light you see in me is real. A storm started at sea, placed me in proximity, to see why in shadows you hide. 

You took what was mine to give with your lies, and didn’t know true love shatters fake love, or that it’s in your heart the true distortion lies.

Words whispered through prison bars lose their charm. It’s over now, the music of the night.

Trust is a difficult thing, but trusting your heart is the riskiest path of all. In the end, the only person we can truly trust is ourselves, and when that is stolen from us, all that’s left is revenge.

This is not a story about happy endings.

⎈S A L T, the novel underway by Sarah K. Grundy

Image and Text COPYRIGHT ©August 2019 MAZEYLOTUS

Apparently Walt Whitman also said these words. I felt them too, Walt.

Apparently Walt Whitman also said these words. I felt them too, Walt.

mortal vindication: naked on cashmere

“You feel right to me she said, like naked on cashmere.”  Atticus Poetry

“You feel right to me she said, like naked on cashmere.” Atticus Poetry

Sometimes love sinks in so deep, we can’t explain it, but we’re drawn to it and when it becomes betrayal you have two options, forgiveness, or mortal vindication.

This is not a story about happy endings.

⎈S A L T, the novel underway by Sarah K. Grundy

Atticus, The Goddess Circle, Mazeylotus, Billabong Womens

Image and Text COPYRIGHT ©August 2019 MAZEYLOTUS

Fall Ayurveda: The smell of freshly sharpened pencils

It’s a little bit “crazy eyes” time of year. Fall, the time where what once was falls at our feet and what will be ruptures like hot lava from deep within. Make space for the darkness and light. - Sarah

It’s a little bit “crazy eyes” time of year. Fall, the time where what once was falls at our feet and what will be ruptures like hot lava from deep within. Make space for the darkness and light. -Sarah

by Sarah K. Grundy

Fall..that smell of freshly sharpened pencils, new beginnings, boldness, courageous shedding of layers and breaking through old paradigms. 

AYURVEDA. Mother Earth. Witches from the Salty Seas.

Include these ingredients into your day now that the season has turned.

Pomegranate: The pomegranate has been heralded for centuries, and in fact, it’s one of the oldest known fruits in existence. Lucky for us, this gorgeous fruit is still plentiful and we’re able to enjoy the benefits of its jewel-like seeds and juice, which is brimming with free-radical zapping antioxidants. These antioxidants have been shown to lower cholesterol, improve heart health, and possibly inhibit the growth of cancerous cells. On top of this, pomegranates are a great source of iron and vitamin C, and vitamin B-6 which helps keep your body functioning as it should.

Pomegranate seeds are delicious as they are, but they’re also incredible tossed into salads, soups, and smoothies. The next time you break out your juicer, try adding in a few pomegranate seeds to reap their rewards.

Pumpkin: It seems only natural to start this list with the most autumnal of them all, doesn’t it? Pumpkin is ubiquitous for fall and on top of being flavorful, this squash is also jam packed with good-for-you vitamins and minerals. Pumpkin is incredibly rich in fiber, which helps to keep you feeling full longer and keeps your digestive tract healthy. Pumpkin is also rich in folate, which aids in cell renewal, and is an amazing source of vitamin A, which helps keep your vision sharp. Just 1 cup of pumpkin contains over 200 percent of your recommended daily intake of vitamin A!

While it’s great mixed into baked goods and smoothies, pumpkin is even better when it’s incorporated into savory dishes like soups and stews. You can even roast it and mix it into pasta and rice dishes for an easy meal. And don’t toss the seeds! Pumpkin seeds are rich in phytosterols, plant-based chemicals that have been shown to lower cholesterol, and they also contain tryptophan, an amino acid that can help boost your mood.

Beets: People seem to either love or hate beets, and I fall into the former category. In my opinion, beets are pretty awesome. These jewel-tone root vegetables were originally harvested for their greens only, but over time people caught on to how delicious the roots were as well, and good thing, because these earthy vegetables are also nutritional powerhouses. Along with vitamin C, folate, and manganese, beets are also a unique source of betaine. Never heard of betaine? You’re not alone, but this elusive nutrient aides in reducing inflammation and has been shown to protect cells from environmental stresses and about a million other things. Beets are also an incredible detoxifyer and help to purify your blood and your liver. And don’t throw out those greens! Buying a bunch of whole beets is a nutritional two-for-one: the greens themselves contain even more iron than spinach.

Beets and beet greens are super simple to prepare. The root can be roasted, juiced, shaved onto salads, and thrown into almost anything. The greens can be steamed, sauteed, or mixed into soups and salads; whichever way you make them, they’re sure to be delicious.

Pears: After researching their nutritional benefits, I’m working on including this autumnal fruit much more into my day. Just the skin of pears contains over half of the entire fruit’s dietary fiber and three to four times as many antioxidants. Pretty incredible, right? Pears are also a great source of fiber and can help aide in lowering oxidative stress on our cells.

Pears are great raw, but my favorite way to eat them is roasted or baked as a dessert. They’re also an amazing addition to salads and can even be tossed on the grill and served as a sweet accompaniment to a savory dish.

Squash: Besides pumpkin, there are countless numbers of other squash available this season, and you should definitely pick some up. Depending on which type you choose, squash is generally an amazing source of fiber and vitamin C, and also contains high percentages of potassium, which can help muscle performance and vitamin A, which helps development.

If you’re new to the wide world of squashes, I think the two friendliest are acorn and butternut. Try trimming and roasting a butternut squash, or making it into butternut squash soup, or try making a stuffed acorn squash. Once you get the hang of it, explore the countless other varieties out there, each one with their own amazing benefits.

SPICES:

Cinnamon

Cinnamon doesn’t just smell heavenly, it also has a number of great health benefits and is actually a powerful medicinal herb used for years in traditional Chinese medicine as a remedy for colds and headaches, among other things. Cinnamon is known to be a great digestive aid and also helps lower cholesterol and balance blood sugar. Even the scent is said to boost cognitive function and memory! I love adding a small dash of cinnamon to coffee or tea, or on top of oatmeal. Cinnamon and honey in tea is incredibly soothing and delicious.

Juniper Berries Juniper berries are commonly used as a spice in preparing hearty type dishes. As a veg head, the only way I've ever consumed them was in a beverage, but they are delicious! Their health benefits including improving digestion, lowering blood sugar and improving kidney health. Mix juniper berries with cinnamon and cloves and any other desired ingredients, simmer, strain and serve hot!

Turmeric

Turmeric is native to Southeast Asia and a member of the ginger family, and is thought by many cultures to be one of the most beneficial substances around. It is a common ingredient in Southeast Asian foods, and was also often used in ancient Indian medicine, Ayurveda. Turmeric is a powerful antioxidant that some studies show can also be used to block the growth of certain cancers. It is also a potent anti-inflammatory. It is best incorporated into food raw – just sprinkle a bit in soup or mix in with salad dressing and enjoy its mild flavor and many health benefits! Oh, and the unexpected uses – turmeric can be mixed with plain yogurt to create a skin cream to promote healthier skin, and it can also be used to make a really beautiful natural dye!

Nutmeg

I actually never knew this is what nutmeg looked like! I’m used to the ground, reddish brown powder that you get when these are ground up. Nutmeg is one of my favorite additions to sprinkle on top of soup in the fall – it has a very potent flavor so you only need small amounts. Medicinally, nutmeg has powerful antibacterial properties and can effectively kill bacteria in the mouth, preventing cavities and sickness – and nutmeg oil can be used to treat toothaches! Other health benefits include mixing with honey to help with nausea, indigestion and even anxiety and depression.

Cloves

Last but not least, cloves are another great seasonal spice that can help remedy colds, skin problems and more. Cloves work surprisingly well as an expectorant if you have a cough – add a couple cloves to your tea and let it do its work! For an unexpected use, a small satchel of cloves in a drawer can give your clothes a lovely aroma and also keep them fresh. Combine ground cloves with honey to make a homemade facial remedy that will help fight breakouts and balance out your skin.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT ©2018 MAZEYLOTUS

Work Out With Surfer Girl Alana Blanchard

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by Sarah K. Grundy

Did you know my favorite surfer girl is Alana Blanchard? She's just badass, grew up in Hawaii, was home schooled, surfs beautifully and has since she was a kid. She speaks and lives like a woman after my own heart.

I love simplicity. Outdoor workouts that take me places, that I can do anywhere, anytime are what gets me stoked.

Alana showed us 10 simple moves for booty gains and booty gains are core gains if you’re doing it correctly.

Alana's quickie went like this (see below) We'll call it "The Surfer Girl Booty Gains Workout”:

1. High Knees, "Keep Your Core in" Alana says.

2. Jump Squats, or just squats without the jumping, "Squeeze Your Butt" Alana says.

3. Mountain Climbers

4. Burpees

5. Jump Lunges

6. Normal Squats

7. High Knees Plus Add 5 Tuck Jumps in between.

8. Plank and Knees to Elbow (this can be done from downward dog also)

9. IN and OUT squats (light leap up, land softly knees together, knees apart)

10. Push Up Burpees with a Jump

Alana suggests, 10 Rounds, 30 seconds on, 10 seconds off.

Download an interval timer app onto your phone and so that you stick to the times and push yourself.

If your knees bite back, don't do the jumps, but still do the movements with a lot of emphasis on your core, form and focusing on what your body is working on, generating more strength to the areas that need it and around areas that need it.

If you want to increase the strength training aspect add weights.

Try 5 minutes on 1 minute off and doing a total of 30 minutes 5 days per week with 2 rest days. 

My fitness journey took a turn when I got my dads surf board from my brother's garage and started to learn to surf. It gave purpose for getting strong.

It helps to have a goal in mind, something tangible to push us to our best selves. Something in me just must ride my daddy Dean's board and that nostalgic force continues to empower me.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © July 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

△ Oat Milk in 3 Steps ▽࿊

Photo taken and edited by my daughter Lulu at Good Karma cafe in Society Hill

by Sarah K. Grundy

Smooth me over with oat milk + espresso. Topped with cardamom & cinnamon and you are sure to at least get a smile. Hugs for sure if you surprise me with something new on top. Espresso + oat milk = magic and healing buzzing through you todos los dias.

Make your own oat milk with 3 simple steps:

3 cups of water + 1 cup of oats

blend in the blender for 30 seconds

strain (and save the remains for pancakes later)

Reuse an old jar to store it in the fridge. Add cinnamon, vanilla, ginger, cardamom, maple syrup and blend for 30 more seconds to jazz it up, or you can do that when making the coffee.

Oat milk is a great replacement for creamer and serves as some of the most nutrient dense fuel you can consume. Known scientifically as, Avena sativa take a look at the profile inside this power house and most of all - you will feel it! Excellent for my fellow Hashimotos and thyroid fam.

  • Manganese

  • Phosphorus

  • Magnesium

  • Copper

  • Iron

  • Zinc

  • Folate

  • Vitamin B1 (thiamin)

  • Vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid)

  • Smaller amounts of calcium, potassium, vitamin B6 (pyridoxine) and vitamin B3 (niacin)

The potency of oat health benefits can be seen in a supplement by Gaia Herbs called, Mood Uplift, which uses oats alongside St. Johns Wort, Passionflower, Vervain, Gotu Kola, Gingko and more. Emotional balance during times of stress, restoration periods, or a time of deep inner healing can be supported by oats and formulas that contain oats.

Oat milk, oat meal, oat tea with turmeric - however you want to get them, get them and lots of them. DIY Or Oatly.

Oats.

As always keep it clean and green - organic and sustainable packaging for both your health and the planets.

Sources: Healthline, Good Karma Cafe, Oatly, Amazon Fresh, Cherry Soy Milk, Sustainable Sabs , Gaia Mood Uplift


Image and Text COPYRIGHT © February 2019 MAZEYLOTUS

The Moon

“The Moon

The Moon symbolizes the Void,
the feminine darkness
and even our own deep forest.

When she is full,
flashes of truth
illuminate us on the Path.

When she has disappeared,
we must carry on with only 
our intuition to guide us.

Fear not, the tide always turns.
When the Moon is weighing on you,
there's a good chance that you are
being called to dive deeply and fully
into your unconscious and
the underworld and bring back
a treasure.” 
― Victoria Kray

▽ Minerals △ ࿊ ~<>•

by Sarah K. Grundy

Magnesium, the eighth most abundant mineral on earth, third in seawater, fourth in the human body is necessary in over 300 reactions within the body.

Every cell in the human body needs magnesium to function, or it won't. Strong bones, hair and teeth, balanced hormones, a healthy nervous and cardiovascular system, detoxification pathways all depend on cellular magnesium sufficiency.

Soft tissue containing the highest concentrations of magnesium in the body include the brain and the heart. Two organs that produce a large amount of electrical activity, and which can be especially vulnerable to magnesium insufficiency.

~<>• stay salty + divine

Sources: Salt Store, Billabong Womens, NIH, Dirty Lemon

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

Garden Gnomes & Wood Nymphs🍅 

photo by Lulu (my offspring)

photo by Lulu (my offspring)

by Sarah K. Grundy

Eating from the garden, food fresh from your own yard will forever change you. This food is life. Nothing else tastes like food.


Growing kale, mint, tomatoes, peppers, blueberries, strawberries 🍓 and some things yet to be determined in our new yard. I walk barefoot through the path, pluck our breakfast from the bushes, while inhaling oxygen, sunshine and water droplets. Sinking my fingers and toes in the dirt delivers me.

It restores your health and increases beauty to frolic through the leaves with the bees. Planting seeds to give back to the earth. Plant seeds everywhere, trail dirt in and out of the house.

Nature heals. It’s only fair to return the favor.

Sources: Sciencing, FAO

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

▽ Aids to the Divine △ ࿊

by Sarah K. Grundy

“Fasting is the first principle of medicine; fast and see the strength of the spirit reveal itself." 〰️Rumi

Fast from food and fuel with minerals, gems, botanicals, argon oil, tea, rose water, pink Himalayan, naked contact with the earth, Spirulina or whatever calls to you.

Allow that space to be empty and fill it with love and nurturing of self.

Receiving.

Breathing out the bad. Breathing in the good.

Fast from electronics, social media, people and flood your cup with moonlight, lily pads, lotus flowers, wild moon energy, movement, flow, painting and whatever your body asks of you. 

Allow that space to be empty and fill it with love and nurturing of self.

Explore a large array of methods that cater to the feminine, that primal space within that’s always been calling your name. Detoxes with sophisticated pancakes and get cozy like in the womb of the sea to bring you closer to your most intuitive self. 

Stay open as you embody your purveyor of the goddess within⎈

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

▽ Skin Food △ ࿊ <>•

by Sarah K. Grundy

Nourish your body with the wonders of the earth. The skin is the largest organ of the body and what seeps into it determines who we are from the inside out. Surround yourself with nourishing vibrations. 

Sea salt and sand carry the energy of our origins are natural detoxifiers, which draw toxins out of the body and provide nutrients that leaves the skin glowing. 

Sea mist spraying off the ocean with the morning sun can not be packaged. Although one of the most potent bottled salt sprays in the world comes from ancient seabeds 2000 meters down. Still, dance with the big blue seas mist whenever possible.

~<>• stay salty + divine⎈

Sources: Ancient Minerals, Salt Store

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

<>• Fire breathing dragon food △ ࿊

by Sarah K. Grundy

Pitaya or Pitahaya is the fruit of several cactus species. It blooms to the full moon like women. The smell and taste reminds me of kiwi, yet I can sense the cactus component immediately. The seeds are rich in lipids, but only digestible when chewed. For how vibrant in appearance this hot pink beauty is, its taste is mild. Both the flesh & seeds are rich in omega's & fatty acids. Full of phytonutrients, antioxidants, B vitamins, carotene, protein, calcium, iron & phosphorous.

This S U P E R F O O D mentors our immune system and respiratory system health & strength. The phytochemical captin, used as medication for heart problems is found in the fruit itself. It helps flush our body of toxic heavy metals. Numerous studies were conducted on the fruit for its role in preventing prostate cancer, thanks to the lycopene. Lowers blood sugar & blood pressure. The fruit can also be found in yellow and red. Its fancy botanical name is Hylocereus undatus, indigenous to Central America.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

△ Stay Dirty️ ▽࿊

by Sarah K. Grundy

Once upon a time we spent more time being dirty. Rx: Staying kissed by sea foam, which is composed of the softest, fluffiest kiss you ever did feel as well as dissolved organic matter (including proteins, lignins and lipids) derived from sources such as the offshore breakdown of algal blooms, seaweed, marine plant life and more. 

B12, which many of us suffer from a lack of, is bacteria; Found in Sea Foam and Dirt on our veggies between our toes and in our nose. 

Autoimmune set in deep for me while living in concrete jungles, amidst an intense amount of fancy cleanliness, glorified and chronic stress. It was sexy at the time and what made me a “powerful woman,” but took a toll.

Stay Dirty.

Sources: NOAA, Beach Connection, Live Science, Peaceful Dumpling

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

The Feminine

Les Demoiselles d'Avignon 

Paris June - July, 1907

Pablo Picasso.

by Sarah K. Grundy

10/2018

The feminine has enraptured and enraged from the beginning of time. “The birth of Venus” by Botticelli, “La Fornarina,” by Raphael and Modigliani’s “Nu couche,” which sold for $170M recently permeate every culture; Yet not long ago women were given citations for wearing bikinis, could be arrested for having their nipples exposed and historical works of Gustav Klimt (among many others) have been destroyed because they included female nudity. It certainly made an impact for Lady Godiva, Countess of Mercia.

In many ways, 500 year old America seems to need raising to reach the maturity of 45,000 year old Europe, for example, and hiding won’t help matters. 

They are subtle some of the oppressions we allow because it feels normal, but the ripple effect is not.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

For the Ones Who want to have it All

Image: shot and edited by Mazeylotus

Image: shot and edited by Mazeylotus

by Sarah K. Grundy

Motherhood. I wish this was a parody, or narrative to the underlying meaning of a splendid, abstract art exhibit, but it's an autobiography and I'm not alone.

 I think women are lying when they say they wouldn't change anything if they had it to do all over again knowing what they know now. Of course we would and we'd do it way smarter ten times over and over if those chances existed. I don't believe we only get this one life. I have been here before and so have my children. Flesh just seems to help spirit manifest and keeps on going with, or without us. 

So, let's not pretend for the kid's sake, or to protect our precious ego or reputation. Let's instead get real and deeply honest. 

It makes my ass twitch when people far too attached and delusional say things like, "but if you went back and did it all again knowing what you know now, you wouldn't have x, y, or z."

No, I would not. 

I was that sister and friend talking people out of parenthood after I saw. Naturally, they ignored me as the call of the wild persists like a she-wolf after her prey.

When I say, “The world changed colors after bringing life,” that's literally what happened to me. I looked out the window and it was like I just woke up on a different planet. 

I saw. 

I saw and heard things I never knew existed before, but they were always there and isn’t there something terrifying about that reality? 

I saw. 

I saw the world for what it truly is and that's not child and family conducive most days, and in most ways, as I thought in my innocence. The world has changed from what it once was, but it's also not ‘the village’ they say it takes to raise a child anyway, your babies will want and cry for you.

Just you.

Daddy won't make the cut or the nanny. Neither of them smells like you, or have their milk in their breasts, or the heartbeat and vibe they knew for practically a year in your womb. 

It's you.

Just you. 

There will be no novel writing while they nap. No! So stop it.

You'll be laid out drooling, begging for sleep, or mercy until they wake you again. 

Even decades after they stop waking you up, your body will still be waiting for it to happen again like an old war wound from combat days and sleep will remain an elusive memory. 

Mine are teenagers. It's 2:30 AM as I write this wired from being needed to death for well over a decade. And I had help. Lots of help. That's a story for another time. 

My body knows sleeplessness, navigating emotions and deprivation on a soldier level. I had to learn how to train my circadian rhythm under highly undesirable circumstances in order to keep up with that 'having it all' lie, masquerade and charade. 

Lies. 

When you can sleep again, you'll stay up just to get time to yourself, and a glimpse of your self, your life, at whatever cost. 

That cost being delirium. 

It's not sexy.

It's not humorous.

It's serious like a heart attack and you will beg for death, but instead will get eternity. 

It's not like the movies; That fun satire, the rush of busy living and chasing the dream with your fancy stroller, heels and bouncing, gorgeous hair. No! 

There's diarrhea on your fancy stroller, crusty breast milk in your hair, and your feet are too swollen for your Jimmy Choos. 

Plus, you don't care because you're too fucking tired to do anything about it.

Don't trick yourself into believing it will be different for you. 

I did.

I was wrong. 

It's a horror show. 

Stop smelling peoples ugly, fat babies, watching those stupid commercials, reading the intoxicating magazines, and get real.

Don't engage in the seduction. 

Fight back against nature!

You wouldn't lay down and die in a tornado, would you? 

No! You evacuate. 

I saw. 

I saw what it took to raise magical humans in the current world and keep them that way.

Pure magic doesn't quite exist the same way now that your endless nights of pot smoking, gourmet meals laced with enchanted mushrooms, vintage wine drinking, fancy restaurants, diva dancing and mingling with intellectuals have come to an end.

No!

It's principals from the murky black lagoon and parent-teacher meetings with women who don't even like you at all who will be talking about you behind your back. 

It's endless years of snotty tissues and vomit is in your favorite Hermes purse that took you 8 years to buy. 

We can't fathom that while we're filled with a calling to create that dates back lifetimes, filled with love, hopes and dreams yet to be smashed to bits by motherhood and adult-onset ADD, which arrives just when you think it's almost over.

Plus, it will be different for you, right?

No!

It was a very small window of opportunity that made me a mother and it nearly did not happen at all, because I almost saw too much, before the children had the chance to get here through me. (All of them would have made it here with, or without me. They are powerful with a destiny about them!) 

They won.

I don't feel I was really made to be a mother. I mean let's keep it real, I love taking care of myself, privacy, adventure and having alone time way too much to be needed as much as you are as a mom. Don't you?

Freedom was my most cherished possession. 

The thing about motherhood is even when they're not there, they are and so that bond takes over if you let it. 

I saw. 

I saw what the world was capable of committing and who I'd have to become to protect them from it, and eventually who they would need to become to live as part of it. 

I saw. 

I saw overpopulation. The earth needs fewer children and more warriors right now. Better would have been getting a big scary guard dog, working out A LOT while learning self-defense and a few yogi superpowers to flip this crazy world right side up again.

What a fucking train wreck. How did we get here? Stupid, stupid, stupid. 

I saw. 

I saw that it was a selfish choice. The children without homes, the adults who've never known love and the amount of mothering this world needs on a grand scale weren't clear yet and had I known I would have been able to be more of service and chosen differently. 

I saw. 

I saw that it's either you have children, and that becomes your service, your mission, or you make a monumental shift in our beautifully handicapped world by fostering and mothering it, delivering a new creation to it, but not both. 

That's what we think before having kids. 'I can so totally do it all.' 

No, we can not. 

That is a lie. 

You will not like the end of that story. 

It will come heavily medicated. 

Do not let them tell you that lie. 

Do not tell yourself that lie. 

But, you will and you'll think I'm crazy, or that it will be different for you. 

Until it's not. 

So, yes, had I known then what I know now, I would do it all over again and thoroughly different. 

Would you? 

Advocate for speaking my fucking truth, raising warrior women, making the impossible possible and not glorifying it.

M xx

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © October 2018 MAZEYLOTUS

Lotus𓆸

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by Sarah K. Grundy

It's not like it seems in the fog. There's an entire horizon that was hiding behind the blur, the mask, the lies, the ego, the inflated realities.

To be where the divine lives that's where we can see.

We're never alone, not even in the isolation periods when we're exploring, discovering and finding our path. Traveling through time and space.

Wandering the past and uniting with the you of the future.

Mending beyond a cellular level that which was torn away and delivering it into the light. Connecting and trusting the unfolding, the becoming.

Welcoming the abundance.

Move like nature moves amidst the change.

Blossom.

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © August 2017 MAZEYLOTUS

Silence

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by Sarah K. Grundy

Nurture your relationship with Silence. 

It was here before anything else. 

It encompasses everything else.

It came Before Sound. 

It Takes you directly to your center.

Silence Links our soul with the cosmos.

We gain ourselves in Silence. 

Without it we are lost.

Here we find re-creation.

Everything comes alive again with Silence.

It Brings brand newness. 

Don't bury this secret in the noise. 

Return to Silence🕊

Image and Text COPYRIGHT © May 2016 MAZEYLOTUS